Lists and Categories

I used to get so stressed out whenever I loaned people my pencil crayons back in elementary and Jr. High school. I had every pencil lined up in a perfect spectrum of colour, taking one to three out of the case at a time whenever I needed them so I could easily place them back where they belonged. This was not the case when other students borrowed them. They'd use multiple pencils at a time and when I received them back I had to take several minutes to place them all back in the same spots before I could relax. 

This is a problem for me. I am still very much like this where I develop patterns and lists and categories for items or information and I feel the need to organize it in a specific way over and over again. This is a huge problem I encounter in writing as I fall into these habits and means of organizing thoughts, which can make my writing stale and repetitive. I'm discovering very quickly that I need to make myself uncomfortable with my own writing and smash those walls of the boxes I create in my head (god damned catwalks man...they turn up like five times in the narrative).

I have broken out of a linear strategy of writing. I am writing segments all over the place now and it's stressing me out some because while I can write the pieces in my mind wherever I want at any time, I am terrified that there will be too many inconsistencies or aspects I forgot about. I suppose this is what editing is for? 

Production is accelerating. I am 100% sure I will be finished my first draft this year. Maybe even by the end of summer. I am excited, but I have so much to do.

Very close to 170,000 words. I stressed myself out yesterday writing one part. I may be getting a bit too invested in what's going on.